The Father I've grown up with

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I used to say I grew up like I was very independent. I was doing my homeworks alone. I went to school alone. I studied alone. Most of the time, I played alone...  I was always alone because of many unfortunate circumstances that influenced me a lot. 

But, behind these instances, was a man who taught me things that only him did. He might not be that good all through-out my life. I might not say he is perfect. But, I can barely say that HE IS MY FATHER.

When I was young, I admit, I hated my dad. I hated it when I was going home with a high grade and he didn't laud me and told me to work more. I hated it when he was disciplining me, shouting at me when I felt like I must not listen. I even witnessed his failures and these made me question his being a father to us. I thought, I could live alone without him guiding me since my eyes could only see him as a bad home man. 

Nevertheless, as I was growing older, I just found myself bringing my father's reminders and advices. I found myself reaching the cream of the crop in the class with a goal of making my father proud of me. I found his words "never to fall in love yet because it destroys" true when I experienced being hurt. My dad's words always creep to my mind and seem like guiding my every move. Then, I realized, no matter how worst my dad had been in my eyes, he was still the father who created the "me" of today. 

He was my father who came over and went up the stage with me to receive my medals when I thought I would do alone. He was my father who, despite of my painful words against him, always knew how to forgive my childish acts. He is indeed my father whom I got my physical features though I always tell him we don't look alike. He is the comedian dad whom my friends know to be popular for being such. And most of all, He is my father who makes me feel blessed whenever I see others living without their dads. 

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I love my father, that's what I've realized. I am proud of him that he is working hard to be a good pillar of our home. He endures the pain of being far from us just to provide our needs. He is trying his best to make up what he had missed in the past and I believe God will continue to change him. He always tries to send a text message to us whenever he is far. Moreover, he keeps in touch with me, checking if I am studying hard and evading boys around.


I love you papa! I might not tell you this that often, but I want you to know that I always pray for you whenever you leave the house for your work. You know I don't show you my weaknesses though you memorize me so much. I'm sorry for being a brat before, I was just growing up and now, I have come to the fruition. I strive to be successful like what you always tell me. Someday, we will live a better life, the same as what we've been dreaming since before. I pray that I won't fail you, let's just have faith to our God. 

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Thank you Papa for everything. Thank you for persevering to change yourself for us. I thank God that he is working in your life and I always thank Him for you. I am glad that your my dad and I wish we can still live together for many years so that I can still compensate my mistakes before. 


And for all the Dads out there, I know all of you are different from each other, but one thing for sure, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE THE BEST DAD IN THE EYES OF YOUR CHILDREN. 

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Listen to your FATHER, who gave you life...
(Proverbs 23:22a)

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to all dads! :)

The father of a righteous man has great joy;
he who has a wise son delights in him.- Proverbs 23:24 

Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord. - Ephesians 6:4 

 Fathers, do not embitter your children, or they will become discouraged.  - Colossians 3:21