I love you my Best Friend..

A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. Proverbs 18:24

I am always the type of girl who doesn't feel like befriending everyone. I remember my Tita telling me, "few friends, that's enough".. Well don't be mistaken, I'm talking about the "close" ones. 

Ever since, I only have at least one friend with whom I really share my whole life. I have one bestfriend in college, one in high school, one in grade school and one in my childhood years. If you’re gonna ask them my secrets in life, I’m pretty sure, they could tell you a lot. Most of these best friends of mine were the most modest and quiet in class. Well, maybe because I was the antithesis.. hehe. I love these chums very much. Even though I was so talkative all the time, telling stories about good-for-nothing stuff, they wouldn’t mind.. they would love to listen to me. Nevertheless, I am always assured that they keep my trust.

This is why, to lose them is a painful hit to me. It has been my weakness- to lose someone I love most.

And it happened. My childhood bestfriend left me. She passed away at the age of 19 with many memories and dreams yet to be fulfilled.

The day when she died, I was very thankful that I was given a chance to visit her in their house. But, as I was standing in their door, seeing her in sufferings, I couldn’t even come nearer. I couldn’t look at her.  She stuck out too much. She couldn’t move her body anymore. She couldn’t talk and could only half-open her eyes.

But I had to show that I did not feel so sorry for her. I must show optimism so that she would be strengthened despite her situation. I wanted to give her hope but I did not know where to get that encouragement.  I couldn’t even utter a word other than  “Mag-pray ka lang Jen. Magpray ka lang.” the only thing I had in mind was God.. God.. “ Pls. let her live Lord, Save her.”

Albeit, I felt a bit of hesitance on asking whether her family would permit me to lead the prayer or not, I directly invited them to join me in praying. We all prayed that night. I couldn’t help to stop my tears trickling down on my face. I couldn’t help to stammer.

After the prayer, I breathed deeply and said to myself, “Lord, whatever your will is, I know you will be guiding her. I’m entrusting her to You.”

That night, I kept on praying even before I slept. I believed that God answered to my prayers.. that He would take care of my friend. So, I put my hope in Him, and in His will.

Then, I woke up with a sad news. Four hours after I had seen her, my friend was gone. Father took her already.

But then, I am certain that she is being cared by God. Her agony was gone, too. She is already resting in His hands. I know that God is guiding her as she continues her journey to the true life.

For this is God, Our God forever and ever; He will be our guide even to death. Psalm 48:14

My dear friend, thank you for being part of my life. You are a blessing to me. Thank you for being such a best friend. God knows how grateful I am that you were there during the times when I was trying to accept my being me, when I was learning to change for better, and when I was finding someone whom I could confide to. I would never forget our memories together:  when we were still playing trashed papers because we did not have those expensive dolls, when I was watching you, diligently doing your chores before we could play, when you were waiting for me so that we could go to school together, when we were blushing as we talked about our crushes, when we were defending each other against those who wanted to hurt us, when we were pouring out our secrets, hatred, remorse and disappointments together, when we were eating together, when we were  laughing together, when we  were dreaming together and when we were living together.

I love you soo much my best friend, you will always be remembered. In my heart, you're alive as you used to be. May you rest in peace because I know, you have been through many trials and I salute you for surpassing those.

"And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away."   Revelation 21:4

God, thank you for letting us borrow the 19 years of Jen’s life. She is now with You, have her in peace, O dear Lord.

Goodbye my friend. Thank you for the genuine friendship. I will miss you but I will continue in loving you.

lovelots,

your friend Mae

For if we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. Therefore, whether we live or die, we are the Lord's. Romans 14:8